I realized something the other day. My anxiety has always been really bad. It used to make me throw up when I was a kid. Or get really dizzy. I often couldn't put it into words. But it's only just now that I could start expressing it in a way that my best friend said … Continue reading Anxiety thoughts
I know it's been a long time since I've really blogged, but I'm doing so, so much better than I was. Sometimes I need to do things other than blog. I've been back in therapy for six months now. I've been moved out for almost 5 years. I saw three different counselors in Colorado - … Continue reading This is a story about the unexpected.
Christmas is hard when you don't feel loved by the people who should love and accept you. Many of us ex-cult and isolated homeschool escapees feel this. We were taught to be focused on our family and only our family and when we figure out our family is broken, sometimes really broken, well. Some … Continue reading I’m not the little matchstick girl anymore
I have something to say to all of my friends. I love you all very much. For those of you who have been with me through this long, crazy journey and never left, I deeply appreciate you for being willing to stick it out with me through the long haul. You might have met me … Continue reading Thank you for staying
Originally posted on Facebook on Sept. 10, 2016. It's been almost one year since the last time I wanted to die. It's morbid, yes, but today is World Suicide Prevention Day and so far, I have kept living. I was 14 when it happened the first time. Winter has always felt like death to me, … Continue reading Why I Kept Living