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This is a story about the unexpected

I know it’s been a long time since I’ve really blogged, but I’m doing so, so much better than I was. I’ve been back in therapy for six months now. I’ve been moved out for almost 5 years. I saw three different counselors in Colorado — a Christian psychologist and two counselors at my collegeContinueContinue reading “This is a story about the unexpected”

I’m not the little matchstick girl anymore

Christmas is hard when you don’t feel loved by the people who should love and accept you. Many of us ex-cult and isolated homeschool escapees feel this. We were taught to be focused on our family and only our family and when we figure out our family is broken, sometimes really broken, well. Some ofContinueContinue reading “I’m not the little matchstick girl anymore”

My friends say that I am Kimmy Schmidt

Most people seem to either love or hate Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt. Two of my study buddies during my senior year of college couldn’t stand watching it because they don’t like awkward humor. And there are some problematic elements in the show. But nearly everyone agrees that I am basically Kimmy Schmidt. They watch the showContinueContinue reading “My friends say that I am Kimmy Schmidt”

The Jar of Self-Confidence and stat bonuses

I’m naturally a bubbly person. One of the nicknames I earned in college was the toesocks fairy. But I’ve been recovering from what my friends and I called emotional hypothermia, slowly warming up to my own emotions, both positive and negative ones. I wondered how much of my optimism was forced. Not all of itContinueContinue reading “The Jar of Self-Confidence and stat bonuses”

Outside the Box: Recovering from obsessive guilt

“i am still learning that i am allowed to be human out hereinside it was not allowedthose things made a bad thing happenso i still feel that. any tiny mistake… ” ~ anonymous friend Obsessive guilt is no longer my religion. But for many years, it was, and the scars left by it still lingerContinueContinue reading “Outside the Box: Recovering from obsessive guilt”